i used to be a cheerleader explores my first female crush, and through the literal “clicking-though” of the narrative, involves the viewer in pixellating a photo of me as a young cheerleader, in the same manner as my brain has altered and reconstructed this memory as I have come back to again and again, building it up in my own personal coming-out mythos. The
internet is often a space for many queer people to explore, build, and share their identity; I create web-based works because it is my natural home, and I create interactive works because queer stories are made more powerful when they are collective.
i used to be a cheerleader is an interactive web-based piece coded in Processing. The user clicks the photo of me as a young cheerleader in order to progress through the memory I am recalling. However, in order to continue to read the memory, the piece begins to pixelate, glitching and blurring the image.
I have been exploring my memories, and how the brain, upon recalling a memory, will overwrite that memory in the process of recollection. Every time I think back to the past, I unknowingly alter that memory, and the more I dwell, the more artificially reconstructed the memory becomes. This memory of my first female crush is one I have come back to again and again, building it up in my own personal coming-out mythos, and now I am unsure what parts of it are real, and what parts of it I have rebuilt as I have reckoned with my sexuality over the years.
Tara Youngborg is a web-based artist working and living in Virginia, USA. She is interested in utilizing the Internet as a space where personal stories can become collaborative, and ways in which to use web-based technologies to create interactive artworks that are accessible to anyone
with a browser and the Internet. She is also interested in exploring how identity is created, formed, and performed on the Internet. Youngborg has shown her interactive web-based work and gifs in exhibitions in Maryland, Oregon, California, Michigan, New Jersey, and always on the web.